I know I said that I would write a longer entry today, but I had an emotionally tiring day today because I finally had the guts to tell my family that I have HIV. I’ll write more about it in the next few days, but for now I’ll just say that that I’m extremely lucky to have the family that I have. I love them immensely and they love me just as much. Their support is something I wish for everyone who has HIV. I am truly blessed.
At 9:30 pm today I took my first ARVs. They’re the same ones that Red had to take. I’m hoping the side effects are minimal. So far I don’t feel anything, and I’m hoping it stays that way. Red is done with his 14-day trial and has started taking Nevirapine twice a day. I’m hoping that he won’t encounter any negative reactions. Some people only start showing reactions much later after starting ARVs, like one guy we met last Monday.
I forgot to post a new entry yesterday. I think it’s only the 2nd time that it has happened, but I still feel bad. To make up for it, since I’m not going anywhere tomorrow, I’ll add at least 2 new long entries and I’ll post some scans of my documents — with my personal info blacked out, obviously hehe.
I have to apologize because I’ve been a delinquent blogger for the past few days, and the earliest I’m going to be able to write a longer entry is this Wednesday. Tomorrow I seriously need to start working on a report I’ve been procrastinating on for work, and I have an interview at a place near Makati. That and I’m planning to tell my Mom tomorrow that I have HIV, so it’s going to be a busy day and possibly emotionally draining.
In the meantime, I went to RITM today and found out that my CD4 count is 289. Not bad because at least it means I don’t have AIDS yet, but I do need to start ARVs as soon as possible. The doctors at RITM want me to finish my baseline tests first before I start the 14-day trial for the meds, so I’m not going be able to go back to Davao that quickly. I don’t want to go back until I’m sure that the side effects aren’t that bad. I met someone today at RITM who only started getting side effects after a month, so it might take a while before I’m in the clear, but we’ll see. My landlady just said that my contract at the room I’m renting will end by July 31, so that might be a sign that I need to move here sooner rather than later.
I also told another friend today that I have HIV. Let’s call her Susan. Before I told her, I said OK 3 things. You have to promise not to scream, you can’t tell anyone else what I’m about to say, and you have to promise not to cry. So I showed her my western blot results, first by pointing to the part of the form with my real name and then pointing to the part where it said “HIV Positive”. She was shocked for a minute then she started crying. I said hey, you promised not to cry and she said sorry but I can only do the first two things. We laughed and we talked for a bit. Susan was very supportive and asked if I needed anything and I said nah, just love. You’ve had that for a very long time now, she said. I am truly blessed with the best friends. I wish all pozzie people had my friends.
That’s all for now. I will write a longer entry as soon as work stuff and my lab tests are out of the way. Thanks for reading. Stay safe and stay strong.
I’m finally going to RITM tomorrow. Wish me luck. I hope my CD4 count is high. I haven’t told my family yet that I have HIV. I’m procrastinating, not because I’m scared of their reaction but more because I don’t think it’s such a big deal anymore. But I will tell them within the week, maybe tomorrow after I find out if I need to start meds or not. Red is going with me to RITM. He was going to go anyway because his 14 day trial for his meds is nearly over. I miss Red. We saw each other last night but it wasn’t enough. I can’t wait until we start living together again.