My Dear friend. Yes, what we have is crappy. It sucks to have HIV. It’s a fucking pain in the ass. There are so many difficult things we have to do on a daily basis and it sucks because our friends and family go through as much if not more pain than we do. But never at any point should we give up. What we have can be dealt with. You just have to stay strong because this is a long-term fight. Cry, lash out, scream, do whatever you need to do and then deal with it. If you need help, we can give it to you. Don’t ever think you don’t deserve to be loved, because everyone deserves to be loved. Just because you’ve given up on yourself doesn’t mean that others will give up on you. We will fight for you even if you don’t want to fight for yourself. Because that’s what family is supposed to do, and you having the virus automatically makes you family. Love, Ben.